I never said it wasnt worth it

Yea i never did.

A long long time ago, i said a prayer. And you came into my life. It was the best thing that happened. And it probably still is.

You once said, we made each other who we are today. Yes we did. I cant say we are better people. And we will never go back to once things were. But one thing i can say, we dont have to make things worse.

I probably dont try hard enough for you. And i never do. But i said i'll never leave. So dont push so hard. Dont.

This past year i told myself to build an armour around my heart, so i'll never never hurt again. I told myself, i cant cry, because it doesnt matter even if i do. Things wont change even if i cry, there would not be a shoulder, there would not be tissue, there would not be. You.

Its probably all my fault things are this way. It probably is.

I thought some time apart would be good for both of us. I thought it would be good to have a brand new start. Why. Why did you have to hurt me. I told myself, he smses me because he cares. Yet, every sms turns into an arrow that pierces straight into my heart. And i bleed.

But you know what. Theres just one thing i want to say.

You're worth it. Worth it. Worth every tear i cry.
Worth that prayer i prayed so long ago.
Worth every hurt that i've gone through.
Worth everything.

Maybe thats what, you are worth too much.

I just.

Wished we didnt turn out this way.