embArkIng oN a nEw jOurNeY

I should stop living in the past perhaps.

Gonna embark on a new journey. Perhaps you think i dont listen to you, i do.

Am i happy where i am? I'll like to think i am, but i most certainly am not. How do i go on from here?

I dislike being left alone. Yet i am learning to get used to it. Bad.
I used to be dependant.. but now i kinda guess i'm not so. Good.

Would i wana be the girl i used to be? I dont know.

I lived my whole life for others. Should i start living for myself?
perhaps i could have been selfish. but i wouldnt be who i am now..
I could have insisted on getting myself a good education. Could have insisted not getting vacation jobs.
Could have, but i did not. No regrets though, when you see the people around you happier because of the choices you've made.

Am i happy?
Happiness is a choice.

Somethings i have to let go. To be pushed back as memories.