Bad Dae.. :(
Late for work today. Had a blocked nose throughout the whole night. coughed out more phelgm (green) today. :(
Got told off by the boss today. Twice. Kinda bad day for me.
Was listening to a song today. Memories flooded in.
I was hurt by a guy before, and i had treated other guys as replacements. I did like them in my own way, but not enough. I guess everyone ended up hurt. How does one fall in love? I guess i am not too sure myself. Do i fall in love easily? I guess i would like a certain person quite easily, but i wouldnt give my all unless i really liked him.
How do you make another fall in love with you? I wouldnt i guess. Its too painful. How do you maintain a relationship, and stay in love?
I can only remember. That i used to be in love, and the guy was in love with another. I still stayed by his side, as a friend. Listened to him when he needs to talk, goes out with him to buy gifts for his girl. Did i hurt? Yea, kind of. If i really liked someone, it doesnt matter to me if i am a replacement. So long as he never tells me. I once told someone, he could lie to me, but i must never never find out. If he were to lie to me, he must keep that lie for a lifetime. Would i live in a lie? Yes, if the person is willing to keep me in it and makes sure i never find out. It sure aint nice for things to be kept from you. I found out about something someone important kept from me for a long time, and it really really hurt.
So glad i have friends by me. Yet i kinda dislike my close friends all being guys. Someone told me, that as long as you put a male and a female in a room, there wil be a certain amount of energy that draws the two together. I guess in a certain sense, he is right. I dislike that i have to run to a guy when i am down or anything. It somehows makes you have to pull back sometimes, making sure you are not too vulnerable.
Sometimes i think i go too far out for people. Will that make people like me? I guess it will. Would i then turn selfish? I guess not, its just not in me to turn others down when they ask for help. And, sadly to mention, i do have a soft spot for certain people (esp guys). For the certain someone, thank you for being so understanding.
Got told off by the boss today. Twice. Kinda bad day for me.
Was listening to a song today. Memories flooded in.
I was hurt by a guy before, and i had treated other guys as replacements. I did like them in my own way, but not enough. I guess everyone ended up hurt. How does one fall in love? I guess i am not too sure myself. Do i fall in love easily? I guess i would like a certain person quite easily, but i wouldnt give my all unless i really liked him.
How do you make another fall in love with you? I wouldnt i guess. Its too painful. How do you maintain a relationship, and stay in love?
I can only remember. That i used to be in love, and the guy was in love with another. I still stayed by his side, as a friend. Listened to him when he needs to talk, goes out with him to buy gifts for his girl. Did i hurt? Yea, kind of. If i really liked someone, it doesnt matter to me if i am a replacement. So long as he never tells me. I once told someone, he could lie to me, but i must never never find out. If he were to lie to me, he must keep that lie for a lifetime. Would i live in a lie? Yes, if the person is willing to keep me in it and makes sure i never find out. It sure aint nice for things to be kept from you. I found out about something someone important kept from me for a long time, and it really really hurt.
So glad i have friends by me. Yet i kinda dislike my close friends all being guys. Someone told me, that as long as you put a male and a female in a room, there wil be a certain amount of energy that draws the two together. I guess in a certain sense, he is right. I dislike that i have to run to a guy when i am down or anything. It somehows makes you have to pull back sometimes, making sure you are not too vulnerable.
Sometimes i think i go too far out for people. Will that make people like me? I guess it will. Would i then turn selfish? I guess not, its just not in me to turn others down when they ask for help. And, sadly to mention, i do have a soft spot for certain people (esp guys). For the certain someone, thank you for being so understanding.
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