And Then

Ya, and then...

All my emails were deleted from hotmail when i logged in today.
What the.

Oh well. I guess all i wanted were the emails you left behind, just for keepsake. But all the better, all the better for moving on.

Bottoms up!

Just a little

Maybe, just a little.

You came by, but i couldnt, just couldnt bring myself to talk to you. Couldnt contact you nor find you anyway, you seem to have evaporated.
Perhaps you did, from my life.

Just as well.

感触

生命里突然少了一节.
婆婆去世了.
最爱我的婆婆去世了.
心中仿佛隐隐作痛.
痛得让人有点不能呼吸.

丧礼办了五天.
我不曾为婆婆哭过.
不是不爱婆婆,而是哭不出来.

你.曾让我封闭了我的心.
也唯有你. 让我在丧礼上哭了.
对你.有又爱又恨的感觉.
想见你,但见到了却希望你离开.

为何你总是把最坏的我带了出来.
为何只要和你一起我就迷失了自己.
为何想到你时,心里痛得无法呼吸.

在这一刻.让我好好地伤心.

爱上了孤独

最近的我,喜欢独自一人.
平常爱说话的我, 突然不想多说半句话.
就听着我的携声听, 拿着一本书.
就仿佛外面的世界不见了.
或许.这才是真正的我.

最近,发现原来独自一人并不可怕.
独自搭了一趟车,再看了看这世界.
若流下了眼泪,就自己擦去.
抱了抱抱枕,还是可以入睡.

后来,发现爱上了孤独.
也已习惯一个人.

i dreamt of you

That you threw away all my stuff.

That your room looks all new and empty without my stuff. Without me.
That you actually turned away from me. And did not acknowledge me.

I felt. Lost. All of a sudden.
Angry. And lost.

I didnt cry then, in my dream. But now, i almost felt like it.

why no one should fall in love with me

Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me
Please baby don't (baby don't)
You know my history
See honey I (honey I)
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you)
Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me

I've been cruisin down this road for a while now,
I should tell the truth...
Girl you've been so good to me
but I knowI'm no good for you
You should run while you can
Find yourself a better man
'Cause I'm known for brief romance
And breakin hearts across the land

Yes I've been known to have a few temptations
Out there on the road
And let's say hypothetically I've slipped and
Took a couple home
Girl I know that's not fair
You need someone who'll be there
So just get away before it's too late
And you're pain is too much to bear

Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me
Please baby don't (baby don't)
You know my history
See honey I (honey I'm)
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you)
Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me

Now on second thought maybe we'll give
This love another try
'Cause I can't see you with no one else
I'm selfish I can't lie
So let's go, let's go slow
You know all you need to know
It could end one day but
Let's just say we'll see how far it goes

Please baby dont

Yea. Dont fall in love with me.
You know my history.

Sometimes i sit by myself and tink, im so not worth falling in love with.
And i hear this song that once you sang to me.

And i hate myself for hurting everyone around me.
And then i sit here and cry.